Λmpon

I wanted to ask you out on Stormrunner : it broke.
It got fixed : you interrupted me in the middle of my sentence, “Anita…” “I have to hold the black handles!”
Then zoom, liftoff, we were going 72mph but I didn’t move at all. I was too caught up in some failcake.
We went on the ride one last time :
“Anita, will you…” “This is my favorite part!”
More failcake.

Oh, and my grandmother died today, and I decided not to be there cause I was too much of a chicken shit, to control myself if she died while I was there. So I fucking shut it all out, cut off all connection to my family with my phone so I didn’t have to hear the news. I wasn’t there, and I don’t think anyone in my family will ever forgive me. I won’t be able to forgive my self.
I’m literally laying next to the girl I didn’t have the balls to ask out, while my family is probably harboring to give me shit when I get there. Why. Why.